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I injured my shoulder at work back in 2010 that just kept getting worse by January 2011 the pain would bring me to tears. I went to an orthopedic doctore through work and we tried physical therapy and several cortisone shots that didn't work so the next option was surgery. I had surgery in June of 2011 and back to physical therapy. In hind sight I remember waking up at my home on that day in so much pain I couldn't breathe and maybe should have stopped believing the workers comp doctor that it was all in my head or it would get better on its one. Within 4 to 5 weeks the pain was getting worse and my range of motion was becoming more limited while I was in physical therapy 3 times a week.

I started complaining of pain going into my scapula, bicep and tricep. I was told that there was no medical reason I should be getting worse but the surgeon did state my range of motion was getting more limited. At this point he felt I was suffering from frozen shoulder and that by Christmas it would probably be better. Long story short, and its a long story filled with specialis and a battery of tests, I was diagnosed with RSD. RSD is a CNS class disease like MS and although I had never heard about it the first cases of RSD during the Civil War. Still very little is known about it.

I did a series of nerve blocks that never lasted very long and my left arm was a nice shade of blue. I even tried a Spinal Cord Stimulator in an attempt to stop the pain signal or at least disrupt it. That failed and now it has traveled. I attempted to go back to working at a less demanding job and I didn't last a 2 months. Now I have a hard time driving and if I do I only do it on a good day and I never go more than 8 miles max but sometimes I just want that freedom again you know blast the music be alone.

I am married to a wonderful man, I have one daughter and 2 step daughters so I had to make a decission am I going to just let this happen to me or am I going to move past this. Well as you can guess by the fact that I am here writing this blog I decided to move forward. I just know that there has to be more to my life than this and I am trying to find out what that is. In the meantime I am going to focus on what I can do and what I do have.